This is gonna be just me writing, not a poem or anything, sorry, but I just need to write this out.
New Me
I walked into school, I knew that this would happen, not fear, but uncertainty
Uncertainty of what my friends would think of me,
not anything I had done
not anything I had said
not anything I had forgot
not anything I didn't keep tabs on
but uncertainty of me, the new me
I had grown so much spiritually, with my friends always hanging out,
always being there, always watching out,
and now, they aren't gone,
but that crutch of having them be my spiritual accountability is gone
I am almost on my own, just me and God walk through those halls
Its not lonelyness that gets to me
its the eyes on me,
people I used to call friends have noticed my changes to be more like God,
and I know they don't like it,
but I wont stop, I am commited to my changes
I doubt I haven't shown it this summer but I know my spirit has grown strong enough,
I can make it through this,
this is what this whole summer has lead up to,
the laughter,
the youth group meetings,
the helium,
the awesome,
the losses,
the commitments,
this is what it all comes down to, whether I will adjust to the school schedule or adjust to my peers, adjust to these stressors or adjust to the way I conduct myself.
I will be missing church due to events planned ahead of time, so these 2 or 3 weeks will be the hardest for me,
pray for me
I will keep my promise, and be pure, I won't give my self away, fool around, and I will think of you,
I wish it were as easy as everyone to cease their being as the opposite sex, but it will never be that easy,
but know you are worth it, and I will keep my promise.
Me!
- Mitchell
- I am interested juggling. Not rubber balls or chainsaws but life. Juggling school, family and the internship. Plus, I want God in all of it. Easy...right?
4 comments:
my goodness, how i can relate to this!
you're in my prayers, man.
the whole summer really does lead to this week.
The week of knowing what your getting back into.
I know your gonna be brilliant in everything you do this year
Your in my prayers
yeah. :)
i love moments where we can only rely fully on God. it's like nerve racking yet exciting and full of anticipation and joy at the same time.
really, I pray that you will put your trust completely in God and grow when you are in the moments where you don't have your church friends and only Him. I think He puts us in those moments for a reason. He wants us totally reliant on Him. What a great God. :)
Aww. Mitch this is so awesome! Just the way you write gets me into feeling what you are feeling. I know this post was kinda old, but it caught my eye. You are a great person to be around, and I know God will use you in enormous ways even you can't see!
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