who, what, when, where, why, how

I am content

WHO: I am not sure which person helped cheer me up
WHAT: Not sure what action was taken
WHEN: Not sure what time I cheered up
WHERE: Not sure what setting I was in when I cheered up
WHY: I am still not sure why I need cheering up in general

HOW: But I do know that it was you guys for you comments and God, that is how I cheered up.

whatever

is it a sin
to simply grin?

So severe
to show cheer,
to want me near,
to be sincere.

Is it beyond belief,
to have any feeling
aside from pure grief?

I am just happy to see you
but if only you knew
that I need you to be happy
just to see me too.

Sometimes I just feel like alot of people just aren't happy to see me,
like I am a burden, or just microscopic.
Like, I am unwanted sometimes.
When I ask if I can tag along, or just chill with some of my friends
I get the apathetic answer
'I don't care'
or
'Ok, whatever'
I don't stay an extra hour or two after services
just to drive home in the middle of the night
amd end procrastinating on my school work
for my health.

Everyone has favorites,
friends you jump out of your seat for when you see them,
even if you just saw them last service.
Even I have favorites!
But to have favorites,
and to be favored
are two completely different things.

a depressing entry,
maybe I am just having an off day
whatever